28 April 2006


they moved
they jumped
they hopped
they skipped
they crawled
they ran
they strolled
they danced
they walked
they fled
they stepped
they hiked
they marched
they darted
they galloped
they shuffled
they fled
they raced
they rolled
they tumbled
they trailed
they flew
they glided
they swayed
they inched
they sailed
they swam
they sneaked
they creeped

a w a y..

one after another.

27 April 2006


they have but i don't.
they can but i can't.

my life is for rent, anyone?

'nuff said.

25 April 2006

happy birthday to shiena!

i've wanted to post this up yesterday but i don't have the time. shiena's birthday falls on the 24th. but i believe being late is better than never. so, here it goes. another shoutout for one of my great friend, shiena. thanks for the dinner the other day and i hope you enjoyed yourself.

sorry for the awful deco. because..again, i don't have adobe photoshop in ryan's pc! ishh. hrm, this picture is classic weii.

22 April 2006

for you i will.

i'm back at home now. my real home. not ryan's or virgo's. been back for like 4 hours only. and now my ass's itchy again. i need to go out. i need a fag. i just CAN'T STAY AT HOME. i don't know why. oh hellll, it's a saturday. what the fuck am i doing at home? *sigh* i guess i shall just wait till 11pm for ryan to finish his work and see what can i do to reduce my ass's itchyness.

at the mean time, hehe i'll just post up some lyrics. i heard this song in office this morning. i remember going crazy over this song back in primary school, or my early secondary school years. hrrrmm, remember The Boy Is Mine by Brandy and Monica? or Have You Ever by Brandy?

well, this one's from Monica. For You I Will. goes out to ryan :)

When you're feeling lost in the night,
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough,
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better,
I'll be there to protect you,
See you through,
I'll be there and there is nothing
I won't do.

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
Promise you,
For you I will.

I will shield your heart from the rain
I will let no harm come your way
Oh these arms will be your shelter
No these arms won't let you down,
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress, tall and strong
I'll keep you safe,
I'll stand beside you, right or wrong

For you I will, lay my life on the line
For you I will fight,
For you I will die
With every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my world
I'll give it all
Put your faith in me
And I'll do anything

20 April 2006


thousands of apologies for the lack of updates. i've got no time! plus i've already moved out to stay with ryan in PJ. sometimes i stay with virgo too :P

my life has been pretty mundane these days. i did the same ol' shit, every single day. that's why i have no stuff to blah about. too bad.

i've got a shoutout to make by the way.

euw. the writing is fugly. reason being because ryan's pc do not have my adobe photoshop. boo-hooo :(

16 April 2006


was in cristro's @ hartamas yesterday night with my 2 bitches. great night. we started off by ordering malibu, bailey's and AK 47 only before having the heavier alco. LOL. a few of cylee's friend came over to join us for a bit and after they left, some cunted things happened.

a waiter came over to our table and asked whether is it possible for the 2 guys across our table to join us. we agreed but have totally no intention on befriending them. this two 25 year old dude is funny, and hrm, friendly. they're self-employed (aherm) and eventually turned out to be the VIPs of cristro's. thus, they introduced us to the manager of cristro's, alan. alan treated us more alco! w0000t. he brought us jug after jug of beers , another bailey's for me (YAY!), ice-cream and tiramisu. bwahaha. we ended up chatting till 5am @ cristro's. the bill of the beverages and snacks we ordered earlier came up to 200 over bucks. and, we got it all for free. ahaks. great night.

14 April 2006

i'm gonna hunt.

came across the list of the Manhunt International 2006 world finalists in xes's blog, posted by bimbobum.

some of the contestants were..disgusting. really.

i like...
turkey. killer's eyes. *melts*

and korea. his sense of dressing and hair. i know some of you might think that his hair looks like shiet. but i likey :P

well, this fella is representing malaysia. no comment.

...but this japan fella is my choice.
he is...cute.

11 April 2006

1545287 people with 1545287 attitude.

YAY. it's a PH today.
don't need to go to work. wahaha :D
overnight in ryan's place yesterday. went to virgo's place in the afternoon. and head to sungei wang with virgo and cylee to look for some stuff today. friggin' tired.

first day of training has been pretty alright. i was placed in Human Resources department. interesting. because you get to meet many weirdos. the job applicants, the staff, bla bla. *sigh*

scene 1
*knocks the door and walk into the office*
"errr, ada vacancy tak?" (errr, is there any vacancy?)
"ada. tapi yang tinggal cuma steward, waiter, waitress dan front desk officer." (yes, but we only need stewards, waiters, waitresses and front desk officers)
"apa yang pertama tu?" (what's the first one you mention?)
"steward. yang buat kerja cuci kat kitchen." (steward. the one who does the washing job in the kitchen)
"ohh. kerja driver ada?" (ohh. do you have a vacancy for a driver?)
"takda. itu kita ada contract dengan orang lain." (don't have. for that we've had contact with other people)
"ohh. commis ada?" (ohh. do you have a vacancy for a commis?)
"takda." (don't have)
"ada apa lagi?" (what else do you have?)
"steward, waiter, waitress, front desk officer. itu saja." (steward, waiter, waitress, front desk officer. that's all)
"itu macam ah...." (like that huh.....)
"macam ini lah, you isi application form dulu. kalau ada tempat, kita telephone you." (you fill in the application form first and if we have a place, we'll call you)
"oh okay."


scene 2
*one fella stomped into the office, placed his name tag on the table and sat down*
"i nak resign." (i wanna resign)
"kenapa?" (why?)
"tak suka kerja sini." (i don't like to work here)
"apasal?" (what happened?)
"bos asyik marah aje." (my boss kept scolding me)
"you dah hantar surat resign belum?" (have you hand in your resignation letter?)
"belum." (not yet)
"you kena tulis surat dulu." (you need to write a letter first)
"bila nak resign?" (when do you wanna resign?)
"hari ini." (today)
"nak tulis surat sekarang?" (do you wanna write your letter now?)
"boleh. tapi macam mana nak tulis?" (can, but how to write?)
"you tulis lah alamat hotel, alamat you, nama, apasal nak resign...lepas tu sign lah." (you write your hotel's address, your home address, your name, reason you wanna resign..and sign)

*his boss stomped into the office, got him into the training room, screwed him like fucks....and both walked out about 15 minutes later*

"i dah tak nak resign lah." (i don't wanna resign anymore)
"okay, i nak name tag i balik." (okay, i want to have my name tag back)

*B L U R*

09 April 2006

lame-ness begins.

training is starting


hate it hate it love it hate it.


my brain is not working too well today. it can't bloody think. i don't know what's wrong. urm, no. i think i know what's wrong. but i just can't tell.


off to watch manUtd vs. arsenal.
manU's gonna win.



[edited at 10th of april 1.13am]
haha. manUtd won 2-0. rooney and park ji-sung is tha man =)

07 April 2006

happy 20th birthday to tammy!

julie is sick sick sick. fucking sick. but she can still be up and about every single day. no wonder she is sick-er now. man, i don't have a choice. i don't wanna rot at home. i don't want the spiders to build their webs on me :(

let's see..on tuesday, virgo, rachel and vinnie came down to klang to look for me and cylee. the klang-ians brought them to Red Chilli in BBK to have their meals and drinks. as cheong-hei as usual, the 5 idiots sat there for godknowshowmanyhours talking and yakking their lives away. hrm, great day.

on wednesday, i was at home throughout the whole afternoon until cylee asked me if i would like to go to the pasar malam (night market) in cheras. but...we don't bloody know the way there. then, we asked virgo about it. haha. damn it. she don't know shit about directions to places for godsake. ended up, we have gary to bring us there after his work. it was my first time going to that night market though. gary told me it's about a 2KM stretch. well, i don't know. but it feels like it. because we actually spent 1 hour+ walking to and fro. damn many things to eat weiiii *dreams* that's why everything also cylee sapu! :P we tah pau-ed the food back to virgo's house and of course, cylee cannot finish her share. lousy.

well, yesterday...*thinks hard*. oh yeah, the girls were supposed to go to ghetto heaven @ zouk again actually. but me and virgo was feeling sick and we don't have the bloody mood to go and shake our booties. decided to stay at home until virgo called and suggested that we go over to her beloved gary's house for a drinking session.

gary stays in sungai long by the way, which is so freakin' far -__-" ohh, he even have shisha at home. how cool. but it's brand new-la. the head, body, tail, testicles and everything is still not attached. we tried to fix it. it works. but the charcoal just don't wanna heat up. so, we gave up smoking it.

then, we had alcohol, as usual. but slightly heavier this time. vinnie tagged along as well as she stays in kajang, somewhere just right beside sungai long. but cinderella vinnie left early :) 3 bitches chat the whole night long, and gary couldn't take it anymore. he went to bed. (yayaya, we understand that you need to work tomorrow alrightt :P virgo was the only one forcing you to stay awake. haha.) at about almost 4am, virgo...DOWN! for the very first time ever. haha. sharp at 5am, i drove cylee back to klang and..we got lost. in some industrial area. how clever :P but with our good sense of ermmm, sixthsense, whatever..we managed to get out from that place and reach home safely at 6am. good morning :)

05 April 2006


according to what i've read in magazines before, they stated that generally, what we dreamt about during our sleep can be interpreted or explained as 2 things. one, being something you're desperate, craving or maybe dying for and the other being something you don't want, terrified or frightened of.

i kinda agree with that, really. i've got the experience before. i remember once i fell in love with my current cell phone but don't have the cash to buy it. and on the same night itself, i dreamt about it. i dreamt that i was having that phone all by myself. what else? i dreamt of dad getting me a new car, dreamt of errr, going to some beautiful island which i have totally no idea where is it. ugh, so many things. dreams about making out? uh-huh :)

but sad to say that i've got more experience on nightmares more than sweet dreams, goddamnit. let's see...errm..i got lost alone in a damn bloody huge cave with trillions of gigantic tarantulas, i died in an earthquake together with a few of my friends. i can still remember who are the peeps with me that time but it's not nice to mention names. people might get offended :| i guess the most terrifying one are the one where i was chased around in a mansion with another of my friend. chased around by a group of bangladeshi-look-alike and they were fucking holding parangs! i've got nowhere to run and quickly hid inside the closet. too bad, they found me and slashed me to death. i woke up not in a pool of blood. but a pool of sweat! hrm, and i am still wondering, did my friend died or not?

i had another nightmare yesterday night. something more terrifying than the one i just mentioned. terrifying not in the sense that i died or kena slashed or anything. but...urghhhh. it's just too scary to even think about it. among the sentences which i still remember the moment i jumped up from my bed was.....
"why are you both..........."
"why can't you understand?"
"don't think that just by occupying me 24/7, you can get whatever you want."
"when things are not meant to be, all you can do is let go."
"get your hands off, bitch."
"you've got nothing to compare with me."

yeah, so that's about it. i was crying and sobbing profusely the moment i woke up. at 4.28am. now this must be something i'm really really terrified of and i swear i don't want it to happen. MCH. you know what, i guess i should go back to the same place, same venue to see if things are for real.

02 April 2006


it's hard when-
you realised that things ain't the same like before.
you knew he wouldn't enjoy doing the good ol' things anymore.
you understand the fact that you will not have the chance to do it ever again.
you tried so hard to work things out but to no avail.
you had to put a smile on your face even if you don't feel like it.
you knew you won't be able to turn back the time.
you are using crying as a lullabye instead of a song.
you no longer fit at that position no more.
you are doing things for the sake of doing it.
you had to rewind and erase every single moment in your mind.
you forced yourself to get rid of the memories, just to make your day better.
you looked at old pictures and gave a loud sigh instead of a huge smile.
you turned to your left, and then to your right but don't see no one.
you go to bed at night and he appears as the last thing on your mind.
you thought you had been replaced with something, or someone else.
you look back and kept repeating to yourself, "how i wish..".
you yearned for the clock to stop ticking when he holds you because you don't have an idea when will the next time be.
you knew that this is not the kind of life you've always wanted. at least not the one you used to lead.
you are accidently reminded of the things you used to do, or say.
you don't see the sparks anymore.
you started envying the others.
you are no longer looking forward to the beautiful weekends.
you saw two souls holding hands, doing or going wherever they want.
you strengthen your faith and guts but in the end you just let loose.
you realised that holding hands is becoming something so rare.
it's double the hard when-
you tried to utter the words "goodbye" but the words just won't come out.

1. 20.

happy birthday to www.biatchjulz.blogspot.com!
it's officially a year old now.
i remember, i created this blog for the sake of yvonne.
just to wish her a very happy birthday.

p/s : hope you were surprised by the card i sent all the way to aussie and may god bless.

01 April 2006

when you just can't...

currently in ryan's home waiting for him to return from work.
am bored. and did something l a m e.
(something lame enough to entertain lamers like you, ha!)

You're a Depressed Drunk

You know that distinct taste of tears and vodka real well.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes...

In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.

A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.
Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.

Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.

Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.

And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

You Are A Friendly Ex

You and your ex are just friends - great friends really.
(At least that's what you keep telling yourself!)
While civility is a good thing, make sure you're not secretly wanting more...

ryan is on the way already! tatas.