dreams.

according to what i've read in magazines before, they stated that generally, what we dreamt about during our sleep can be interpreted or explained as 2 things. one, being something you're desperate, craving or maybe dying for and the other being something you don't want, terrified or frightened of.

i kinda agree with that, really. i've got the experience before. i remember once i fell in love with my current cell phone but don't have the cash to buy it. and on the same night itself, i dreamt about it. i dreamt that i was having that phone all by myself. what else? i dreamt of dad getting me a new car, dreamt of errr, going to some beautiful island which i have totally no idea where is it. ugh, so many things. dreams about making out? uh-huh :)

but sad to say that i've got more experience on nightmares more than sweet dreams, goddamnit. let's see...errm..i got lost alone in a damn bloody huge cave with trillions of gigantic tarantulas, i died in an earthquake together with a few of my friends. i can still remember who are the peeps with me that time but it's not nice to mention names. people might get offended :| i guess the most terrifying one are the one where i was chased around in a mansion with another of my friend. chased around by a group of bangladeshi-look-alike and they were fucking holding parangs! i've got nowhere to run and quickly hid inside the closet. too bad, they found me and slashed me to death. i woke up not in a pool of blood. but a pool of sweat! hrm, and i am still wondering, did my friend died or not?

i had another nightmare yesterday night. something more terrifying than the one i just mentioned. terrifying not in the sense that i died or kena slashed or anything. but...urghhhh. it's just too scary to even think about it. among the sentences which i still remember the moment i jumped up from my bed was.....
"why are you both..........."
"why can't you understand?"
"don't think that just by occupying me 24/7, you can get whatever you want."
"when things are not meant to be, all you can do is let go."
"get your hands off, bitch."
"you've got nothing to compare with me."

yeah, so that's about it. i was crying and sobbing profusely the moment i woke up. at 4.28am. now this must be something i'm really really terrified of and i swear i don't want it to happen. MCH. you know what, i guess i should go back to the same place, same venue to see if things are for real.