28 October 2008


i hope my smile
can distract you
i hope my fists
can fight for two
so it never has to show
and you’ll never know

i hope my love
can blind you
i hope my arms
can bind you
so you’ll never have to see
what we’ve grown to be

one may think
we’re alright
but we need pills
to sleep at night
we need lies
to make it through the day
we’re not ok

one may think
we’re doing fine
but if i had to lay it on the line
we’re losing ground
with every passing day
we’re not ok

but that’s one thing
i would never
one thing i would never
that’s one thing
i would never say to you

27 October 2008

The girl who can't be moved.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.


40 more days.

25 October 2008

I hung up the phone tonight, something happened for the first time deep inside, it was a rush, what a rush.

every time i think of you
i get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
it's no problem of mine but it's a problem i find
living a life that i can't leave behind
there's no sense in telling me
the wisdom of a fool won't set you free
but that's the way that it goes
and it's what nobody knows
and every day my confusion grows
every time i see you falling
i get down on my knees and pray
i'm waiting for that final moment
you'll say the words that i cant say

i feel fine and i feel good
i feel like i never should
whenever i get this way, i just don't know what to say
why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
i'm not sure what this could mean
i don't think you're what you seem
i do admit to myself
that if i hurt someone else
then we'd never see just what were meant to be
every time i see you falling
i get down on my knees and pray
i'm waiting for that final moment
you'll say the words that i can't say


why do i keep running from the truth?
all i ever think about is you
you got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
and i've just got to know

do you ever think when you're all alone
all that we can be, where this thing can go?
am i crazy or falling in love?
is it real or just another crush?

do you catch a breath when i look at you?
are you holding back like the way i do?
'cause i'm trying and trying to walk away
but i know this crush ain't goin' away
goin' away

23 October 2008

Thank you Stacy, Asrar, Janice, Voon Tze and Vivien.
I owe you guys.

And Shanny.

20 October 2008

Crush Crushed.

someone please get me a spade.
i wanna dig out some shits off my brain.
i can't breathe.

08 October 2008

One thousand four hundred and sixty days of love.

You're like a rock,
Standing strong, holding me up.
Especially for the past few years of my life.
Thank you for everything, and being my everything.
Happy 4th Anniversary.
Je t'aime, ma drogue.