29 May 2006

drnkrd mnkys.

yeah, drunkard monkeys.

that's the exact phrase i'm gonna use to address my peeps the next time we go club and they get drunk.
don't worry virgo, i don't mention names.

we went to shake our booties on the 27th. errm, i would say it's on the 28th-la actually. the clock striked 12 after a few minutes we entered.

28th..28th..28th..i recalled many memories. some were too sweet. and some were just too bitter. it's so bitter you don't wanna fucking think about it. well well well, i guess memories are not meant to be forgotten :)

but anyway,

i was expecting myself to be the drunk-est by the end of the night

and even try to get myself tipsy but to no avail. it's been awhile since i last left the club puking my lungs out and walking as though i was floating -_-"

trust me, i can still drive myself all the way back to ryan's place after our clubbing session. fucking conscious. but lucky shit no road blocks-la.

many of us went. but we only managed to mingle around with a few people. hrmmm. but that night was great, except knowing the fact that ryan waited for me until 4 in the morning.

SOWEE :( *shows innocent face*

we left the club early actually. but because a few UN-drunk people have to handle the drunk ones, we arrived home EARLIER.

26 May 2006

she won't cry.

trust me,

it hurts.
it kills.

but i guess it doesn't matter much to me anymore.
because i loved you.

i'll walk towards the gate of darkness


say to myself,
welcome to the house of sorrow.

i'll wave to my new friend and say,
hello tears.

23 May 2006

oakley, the love of my life.

julie is on MC today! :)
was feeling darn bored throughout the whole day, so i tried doing something that i shouldn't do. something that i have not been doing for long. and now i regretted doing it.

i visited



scroll down, take a look at THAT, THAT THAT and THAT! bahhh. take a look at all of 'em! they're practically driving me crazy. i don't think i'll be able to sleep tonight. because the shades will come haunting me. tsk.

time really flies people. and when they're flying, please start saving money. my birthday will be in 3 months time. no, actually less than that :D RM1000+ for a piece shades is not too much, i guess? or maybe you could just get me the RM900 plus ones? errr, RM800 plus also can? *shows innocent face and purrs*

nah. i was just bullshitting around. but i really love Riddle and Script. and Half Jacket too. no, i love all of 'em. i should start saving money and bloody cut down on ciggie and alco.

hrmm, will try to get Half Jacket XLJ or Polarized Half Jacket XLJ for ryan for his upcoming birthday :D i said i'll TRY.

damn. now i feel like dumping my old oakley shades away. i don't want my old oakleyyyyyyyyyyy. i want a new oakleyyyyyyyyyyy.

22 May 2006

double E. the birthday boys.

edwin, eddie and ernest (his birthday was past 4 days). i've known them ever since my primary schooling days. they're fun..crazy and totally nice. we were once darn close. probably during the secondary school years, but as time flies, we drifted apart. i mean, we still keep in touch. but, like once in blue moon during special occasions. last time, almost every year, we would celebrate each and everyone's birthday together. we have a huge gang. like 20 over of us. we'll organize parties, we'll eat out, go to karaokes and stuffs. how i missed all of those.

but i don't think we'll ever have the chance anymore. as one grows, they walk on their own path. they go on their own way. they have different cliques of friends. they have much more important things to do. you see, how time has changed our lives. appreciate what you have in your hands now. and never take things for granted.

wishing you both a very happy birthday and it's sad that we don't celebrate birthdays together anymore. i wish both of you a great year ahead and do enjoy yourself no matter what. i may not have celebrated this big day with you guys but the memories left will be cherished. take care and may God bless.

a very happy belated birthday to bee yin too. hope you had a great one yesterday.

p/s: it's sad that i looked extra fat meaty in that picture too. how sucky. haha.

20 May 2006


with the assistant HR manager just right beside me, i am blogging.
how daring :P
but blogging from the office is shittie -__-"
i don't have my collection of beautiful pictures here, no photoshop, laa dee dah.

BUT still, i managed to come up with something, for WAYNE.


i am terribly sorry dude.

18 May 2006

hairpee berfdeiiii =)

wishing ernest and TJ a very happy birthday. may God bless.

17 May 2006

wanting to return.

i've been leaving this column blank for a good goddamn 45 minutes and finally managed to get my pair of hands to move and type something.

but still, i'm speechless.

never once in my life i thought that things like these would ever strike me again. not after a few years long. i never thought that i'll get caught up in situations like these. i reckon i am weak. i realised i'm not as tough as i always thought i am. or what the others thought i am.

there is a sin in my heart.
i wanna return.
i wanna return to the prevailing state.

and if i wanted silence
i would whisper
and if i wanted loneliness
i'd choose to go
and if i like rejection
i'd audition
and if i didn't love you
you would know
and why can't you just hold me
and how come it is so hard
and do you like to see me broken
and why do I still care

14 May 2006

the weakness in me.

I'm not the sort of person
Who falls in and quickly out of love
But to you I gave my affection
Right from the start

I have a lover
Who loves me
How could I break such a heart
Yet still you get my attention

Why do you come here
When you know I've got trouble enough
Why do you call me
When you know I can't answer the phone

Make me lie
When I don't want to
And make someone else
Some kind of an unknowing fool
You make me stay
When I should not
Are you so strong
Or is all the weakness in me

Why do you come here
And pretend to be just passing by

When I mean to see you
And I mean to hold you

Feeling guilty
Waking from tormented sleep
This old love has me bound
But the new love cuts deep

If I choose now
I'll lose out
One of you has to fall
And I need you
And you

BINGO, this song explains it all. i'm in a mess.

10 May 2006

well said.

i personally think that this is a darn good article to read. tell me 'bout it.


In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the
question, "What kind of man are you looking for?"

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asked, "Do you really want to know?"

Reluctantly, he said, "Yes."

She began to expound...

"As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man, or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?"

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally
because I need conversation and mental stimulation.

I don't need a simple-minded man.

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked. Believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden.

I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.

I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him.

I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive, he just has to be worthy.

God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."

When she finished her spill, she looked at him.

He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You're asking a lot."

She replied, "I'm worth a lot."

08 May 2006



it's been a week since my last post, eh. i've been doing the same ol' shit for the whole of last week. except that i went to ghetto heaven @ zouk last thursday. and still managed to wake up to go to work the next day. blehh. we had virgo's elder sister with us this time. she landed on KL from jakarta. (using the word landed made her sound like she's some alien. haha.)


i can't think of what to post.

maybe i'm lazy.

maybe i'm not.

maybe...i'm feeling bloody messed up.

maybe...i just don't know how to express myself.

or maybe i just don't want to.

sometimes i think it's better if things are left unsaid.

but at times, it's not a good thing.


it's hard to swallow disappointments.
but i know i had to gulp them down.

i wanna scream.

01 May 2006

happy labour's day :)

labour's day?

hope all of you had a great one.

mine's not good.

i'm having this damn motherfucking itchy rashes all over my body.

i can't help but to scratch the whichever itchy parts whenever it itched. my whole body is getting fucking sore now.

and what's more? i'm having diarrhoea. how great.

i'm basically shitting..water.

bwahaha :D

but i hope it gets worse, so i can be on MC tomorrow *evil grin*