leave my boy alone.

i saw her today.

she gave me a smile.

i couldn't afford to smile back.

instead, i just gave her a stare, a cold one.

and i glance away.

i couldn't even afford to utter a normal and usual Hello.

her face i despised.

her name i detested.

her body i disgusted.

her moves i loathed.

her laughters i disliked.

her voice i scorned.

everything about her i hated.

you see, i'm being kinda nice here already. i tried to bring myself to like her but i failed terribly. the thoughts of seeing things i don't wanna see drove me crazy. it makes me wanna scream. like emily rose. i fucking hate both of them for bringing me to this stage of agony. this intense struggle that precedes to almost, death. at least that's what i felt like right now. i had sleepless nights. even if i do, i have to cry myself to sleep. i have to wet my pillow to sleep. like a crying baby who doesn't get what she wanted. now tell me, did they hear me? most of all, did HE hear me? i wish. i pray. i hope. but all in all, i will thank them for letting me go through this ordeal. this painful and difficult experience. now they know my powerful endurance and my continuing existence ;) well, finally i can afford to give a smile. for the ordeal has ended. and i am the winner. i have got what is supposed to be mine.

oh by the way, do i sound really mean? being mean is good. and being mean is bitchy. but hello, i AM bitchy. tell me what can you do about it.

...we shall rephrase the word HEARTS to HEART without the letter (S) because there's only one bleeding heart which is mine.