i ain't insane. well, maybe a lil.

was in library during my 3 hours break today when rachel and turtle-cylee started browsing through my mobile for mp3s to be bluetooth-ed (does this word actually exist?) to their phones. the results : they found my unknown awesome collection of trance music. hahaha. yeah, unknown. at least to them. they are well-known okay girls. note that i ain't talking about dj tiesto's traffic or benny benassi's satisfaction -_-". but thank goodness rachel was far better than turtle-cylee! having a massive headache talking to her. -_-" -_-". she should know what i mean ;p yeah, so, i was telling them a bit about trance, how much i love trance, when do i listen to trance and how do trance music actually "motivates" me. believe it, i sob while listening to euphoric trance. they claimed that i'm crazy. ask the trance freaks out there and they'll explain to you why. now, turtle-cylee is trying hard to enjoy trance music. she wanna try to catch some 'kek'. sorry, i don't know how do i translate that word to english. hahaa.

blind.

i had a dream last night. a sooper dooper cun-ted dream.

ahhhhhhhhhh. how i wish.

nvm, i'll entertain you with the story of my dream right after i introduce this song to you. understand the words to the song. it's meaningful.

lifehouse - blind (i love lifehouse. they're good. i love the lead's voice. deep and low. but i don't like his face. too gay-ish. haha.)

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

xxx

i know i promised you the story of my dream. but i'm feeling all lazy and sick now. the fucking flu is back. i'm suffocating already. and my bed needs me. see you peeps.

warning.

I'VE GOT PMS.
I'VE GOT FEVER.
I'VE GOT FLU.
I'VE GOT COUGH.
I'VE GOT SORETHROAT.
SO,

STAY AWAY.
DON'T SAY YOU'VE NOT BEEN WARNED.

please fckin entertain me.

fuck saturdays and fuck sundays.

so friggin' bored.

had dinner with donkee yesterday night. lame-d at his place the whole night until this morning. he bloody slept at 11 something and left me alone till 4 am in the morning feeling so restless. the reason being because the perverted indian fucks neighbour staying beside his condo BOOM-ed loud indian music or perhaps movies (i can't tell the difference because indian movies has lots of singings too.) till the sun almost rises. i should have went down to the security booth and lodge a complaint. but come to think of it, ugh better not. they might break into my 2nd home and rape me anytime. you know, since i'm often alone at home. so, the indian fucks finally decided to sleep at 4am in the morning. brainless.

all in all, i slept at 4am in the morning as well like the perverted indian fucks. (i have my own reason why i addressed them as the perverted ones. it's a rather long story.) donkee woke me up at 7 am this morning. don't ask me why. i re-sleep back till about 10am.

but still, i need some sleep badly. but i can't afford to sleep now. i don't wanna be an owl tonight as i have class tomorrow morning. ughhh. good day everyone.

^ ^

(@v@)

( v v )

x x

*woooot*

fuck fuck fuck.

total disappointment disappointment disappointment disappointment disappointment.

it was only a piece of mask. and nothing else. a piece of mask which fool only a single soul - me.

no regrets.

one of my friend asked me a question today.
he asked me,
have you ever let go something precious and then regret it later?
i thought about it for awhile,
and i answered,
no. i've never regret letting go anything at all.

i'm glad that i made the right decision.
i'm glad that i'm contented with what i need.

"no regrets. they don't work. no regrets now. they only hurt..." - No Regrets by Robbie Williams. absolutely superb song.

i believe that-

i believe that no matter how a good friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

i believe that true love continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

i believe that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

i believe that it's taking me a long time to become the person i want to be.

i believe that we are responsible for what we do, no matter what we feel.

i believe that either you control your attitude, or it controls you.

i believe that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

i believe that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

i believe that sometimes when i'm angry, i have the rights to be angry, but that doesn't give me the rights to be cruel.

i believe that maturity has more to do with what type of experiences you've had and what you've learned from people and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

i believe that no matter how bad your heart has been broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.

still feelin' emo.

if someone were to ask me to give them the definition of love,

i don't think i would know how to give them an accurate answer.

but for me,

it is all about

sacrifice.
toleration.
honesty.
patience.
understanding.
and.
trust.

what d'you think?

xxx

you'll be stepping on a brand new path in life from today onwards donkee. i wish you well and bear in mind that i'll always be here whenever you need me. please earn more money as you need to support me. LOVE YOUUUUUUUU MUCHOOO x)

italianooo pizza! *yum-ster*

i was feeling darn bored in the afternoon today. donkee was busy in Alliance Française @ KL. he prollie had some good time cleaning his soon-to-be 2nd home kitchen and having meetings with his chefs. yeah, that is why i was so friggin' bored with absolutely nothing to do at home. then i thought, eh. i'm gonna do something meaningful and useful today. making pizza. HAHA. stop laughing. well, for those who are laughing, it means that you're close to me enough to know that i don't fcking lay my hands on whatever shit that has gotta do with kitchen or cooking utensils. but trust me, you'll be begging me for a piece of it later. heh. another reasons why i decided to try cooking and baking stuffs? because..hellllooooo. my donkee is a cooook. of course i got to standardize my cooking capability with his. although..yeah, his food will definately taste better than mine. haha. but at least i tried.

so i got my sissie to go over to Tesco with me since she's as lame as me at home. i bought the pizza base as i don't have sufficient time to make one. uhrm, i got a bottle of tomato puree, green capsicum, Cheddar and Mozzarella cheese, spicy tuna chunks and onions. damn, we bloody missed buying crab sticks. argh.

it only took me like less than 30 minutes to prepare the pizza. i realised it's actually quite a simple thing to do. i will not elaborate further on how to make that piece of pizza cause i guess you guys will definately know it better than me. but please, give me some face. tell me it looked good and yummy. it's my first time. and i have talents! haha.

voila! my spicy tuna pizza!

HAHAHAHA. now do you want a piece? call 1300-88-2525 for delivery service. oops. sorry. that's for Pizza Hut.