stuff to avoid you from falling asleep when u're getting too tired of studying. try it.

YOU ARE 22 YEARS OLD

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

22 years old? bullshit. i am ONLY 19. and. still. growing.

so, what age do you act? find out urs, here.

is it okay for me to go to bed now?

I AM FUCKING SLEEPY AND EXHAUSTED.

couldn't believe that i actually REALLY studied from about 10 at night till 6.30 this morning. YES, NO SLEEP AT ALL. NOT EVEN A 10 OR 20 MINUTES NAP. i couldn't afford to take a nap. there was just too many things which i had totally no idea on how to do or how to answer. but i'm glad that two of the toughest paper is over by now. hotel management paper was pretty much fuckup for me. i can hardly do the first few sections which involved numbers and calculation. i told ya. i'm a sooper dooper big math idiot =) accommodation tech. was alright. i managed to finish that paper 1 hour earlier. heh ;p i answered alllllll questionssss. YAY! no blanks. wooooooot!

it's a frenchie frenchie day tomorrow. i just can't imagine reading and answering questions in french right infront of the tall, fair, big, macho and *coughs*goodlooking*coughs* french guy. nah, i was just kidding. they are too old for my liking. hehehe. damn, bet i'll sound like a big fat idiot tomorrow.

oh yeah, before i go. the secret to my whole sleepless night is 3 cups of "kao" coffee. try it. it works. but never i'm gonna try it anymore. having not enough sleep or no sleep at all is fucking torturing. my brain throbs like fuck now. i want sleeeeeeeepppppp! *sigh*

au revoir.

letting go.

sometimes i just wanna let it go.

sometimes i just wanna end the whole ordeal.

sometimes i just wanna leave it for time to tell.

sometimes i just don't wanna do it.

i ain't talking about my exams. don't get me wrong.



i need booze. i wanna get wasted.

trials result is out. finals is tomorrow.

our trials result came out just yesterday. i'm not satisfied. i want an average of at least 15 and above! i won't ask for a 16. that is just plain impossible. i managed to get only a 14 point something something. urghhhhhhhhh. need to buck up on my calculations and numbers. i'm a math idiot. a big one.

the big day is tomorrow. will be sitting for that fuckup hotel management and accommodation technology paper. kill me man, kill me.

off to my books now. i'm running outta time.

[edited at 1:50pm]
best of luck for the whole DH + DT 17 peeps.

where are you, lil thang?

goddamnit. i lost my oakley shades. meaning, i lost a part of me. no-lah, exaggerating only. i lost a quarter of me =/ it's not in my bag, not in my car, not in my house, not in donkee's car, not in donkee's house, not in virgo's house, not in FQ's house. then where on earth can it be!? whoever who found it..pllllleassssssssse rettttttuuurrrrrnnnn ittttt toooooo meeeeee! iii bbbeeegggg yoooouuu.*sobs* ;(

where the fuck are you?

neglect.

one word says it all.

as the world change...

i've got zillions of thoughts now on my mind. but i just don't know where to start. i don't even know if i'm supposed to voice it out here. this world is so complicated. i really wish it was simpler so that there will be no frowns, no tears, no fights, no arguements, no suicide, nothing. the world is changing. not for the better. but for the worse. i don't know about your life. but i know mine sucked big time. it sucked in terms of everything. family, love, financial, education, friendship, everything. people see me as someone who is happy and carefree all the time. but they don't fucking know the stories behind the mask that i've put on. how sad is that?

someone close don't trust me.

someone close don't understand me.

now who else can i rely on?

myself?


no way. i might just break down and die.

we are so courageous.

me, donkee, FQ, jie, jason, erina, kenwee and edmund actually had the courage to go all the way uphill to Genting yesterday night about 9 something when we are actually having our major exam week for the whole of this week and the whole of next week. it's the trials and finalssssss peopleeee. it's a last minute plan. hrmm, it's not too weird if they had the courage to go yesterday as they do not need to sit for any papers today. the weird thing is that I still had the courage to go when i'll be having my professional communication presentation today. i only prepare them this morning for your information. that presentation is over anyway. i think i did okay =/ just O-KAY.

so yeah, jason and edmund drove. did nothing much up there. we went there to release "stress" (yea right). at least that is what jie says-lah. hehehe. 3 idiots namely FQ, jie and kenwee went to casino. 1 idiot namely edmund was busy shooting his "enemies" in the arcade. jason and erina went to we don't know where. so, me and donkee went to have our cup of drink in starbucks because it's not like we can enter that goddamn-i-made-people-commit-suicide casino and we are so not interested in arcade games. only kiddo like edmund enjoy arcade games!! how lame. after awhile, all of them came to join me and donkee. heh heh heh. we left at about 2 something in the morning. made our next stop in gohtong jaya to have another round of drinks. no, actually we were there to look for food =) after that, we head back to home and i collapsed on my bed at 4am. kekekeke. we rock baby.

stutter.

i must have listened to too much of joe featuring. mystical's stutter last time which resulted in me stuttering throughout the whole fucking 20 minutes of my professional conduct's presentation today. i bet the jury herself didn't know what on earth was i presenting about. i just threw away another 20 marks into the dirty klang river. *sigh*

i'm having a headache.
i'm feeling dizzy.
i'm bloody exhausted.
i'm desperate for some sleep.
which is merely impossible.

I REALLY NEED TO GET SOME SLEEP! but i can't. i need to study =/

i was wondering, how can someone who get to sleep soundly before exams and don't prepare much scores high marks at the end of the day? but for this, i've found the answer myself. i think they are just naturally smart. like DONKEE. on the other hand, how can someone who do not get to sleep much before exams and study like an asshole gets shitty marks? like ME. ahhhh, this world is fucking unfair. we all need some changes.

rachel sent me an sms right at the time when i was feeling goddamn frustrated while studying and preparing for my french presentation.

It takes 15 trees to produce the amount of paper that you use to write in one exam. Join us in promoting the noble cause of saving trees.




(and as you scroll down, it reads...)



SAY NO TO EXAM. TAK NAK.

hehe. i don't know if it is consider funny to you. but i find it quite hilarious. this had definitely made my day.