why me. and not you.

today is the first time i ever felt so problematic,
so daunted.

"Oh there's a little boy waiting at the counter of the corner shop
He's been waiting down there waiting half the day
We never ever see him from the top
He gets pushed around, not to the ground
But he gets to his feet and he say's

What about me, it isn't fair
I've had enough now I want my share
Can't you see, I wanna live
But you just take more than you give

Oh there's a pretty girl serving at the counter of the corner shop
She's been waiting back there waiting for her dreams
Her dreams walk in and out they never stop
Well she's not too proud to cry out loud
She runs through the street and she screams

What about me, it isn't fair
I've had enough now I want my share
Can't you see, I wanna live
But you just take more than you give

So take a step back and see the little people
They maybe are whatever wants who'll make the big people be
So listen, as they whisper
What about me

Now I'm standing on the corner, all the worlds gone home
Nobody's changed nobody's been saved
And I'm feeling cold and alone
I guess I'm lucky, I smile a lot
But sometimes I wish for more…
Then I go….

What about me, it isn't fair
I've had enough now I want my share
Can't you see, I wanna live
But you just take more than you give"

but, today is also the first time i ever felt so loved.

my orgasmic christmas wishlist :)

[in no particular order. i want them all at the same time.]

1) Sony Ericsson K800i. i don't want my N70 anymore :(
2) anything from LeSportsac. just ANYYY.
3) Bvlgari Omnia. i know it's backdated. but who cares?
4) cash. enough said.
5) Burberry wallet. Or ermm, a Mont Blanc will do.
6) a fully paid beach vacation! i need one badly :( too expensive? just bring me over to Cyberview Lodge Resort & Spa and i'd be your slave forever. but provided you pay for my spa and massage also lah.
7) Sony Cybershot DSC-T50. my camera laupek redy :(

7 items only eh. not too much lah hor? =/

PAHAHAHAHA.

well..
it's the fact that i want those items so damn much.
but all i want for christmas is ryan!!!!!!!!!!
my boy has to work :(
on the 24th and 25th. till late night. after everyone finished partying.
how lah deiiii.
who wants to date me?
*sobs*

announcement of results ceremony.

KC, FQ, Jie

Virgo and Cylee

Vinnie. Blame Ning for the blur picture :D And look at my un-prepared face :(

Why lady boss? Don't know =/

Ning, Vinnie, Rachel, Chereene, Cylee, Virgo

Sherri, Natassya, Beefong, Wenwah

Look! The tit teeth! So happy hor?

it's the end of everything.

...and the beginning of something.

done with the last oral presentation yesterday.
got my results today.
and don't know what the fuck am i gonna do the next day.
=/

i'm not satisfied.
it shouldn't be that way damnit.
but all in all, i'm glad it's finally over now.
special thanks to :
ryan - for accompanying me to the results ceremony. your presence meant alot to me for i know someone would be there for me even if i really do fall. thank you also for always being there. like all the time. may it be 1am, 3am or 6am, you will STILL be there to listen to me whine or to watch me shed tears. love you to bits.
KC - i know how much of effort you've put in to teach me every little things that i don't understand. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH BROTHER! but wtf, sorry lah if i disappoint you.

i went for a make over straight after my finals.
PAHAHAHAHA.
i'm loving it :D
uhh, ryan too :DD

pictures are on the way. stay tuned.

what if ..

1.Ever been given a ring?
- yeah. once *aherm*

2. Longest relationship?
- 4.5 years.

3. Last gift you received?
- well, i can't remember.

4. How many times have you dropped your cell?
- my current cell? less than 7 times i guess.

5. Last sport you played?
- bed sport.

6.Things you spend a lot of money on?
- clothes, shoes, food, nicotine and mr baldman samy vellu's toll charges.

7. Three things you ate last?
- yogurt, McD's nuggets and fries.

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
- his clothes and its brand.

9. One favourite song?
- can i name ten?

10. Where do you live?
- klang and PJ.

11. Last relationship?
- i don't know what went wrong. oh no, actually it was me.

12. Cell phone service provider?
- maxis

13. Favorite mall store?
-nehh, don't know. so many.

14. Longest job held?
- internship counted ah?

15. Do you own a pair of dice?
- for fucks?

16. Do you prank call people?
- booo. that's lame.

17. Last person who text messaged you?
- joanne. she asked whether she can have the 2 green paos on the table. PAHAHAHHA.

18. First FRIEND you'd call if you won a lottery?
- ryan the boyfriend :D

19. Last time you attended church?
- i don't attend church.

20. Favourite fast food restaurant?
- McD i supposed.

21. Last phone call from?
- ryan.

22. Last time you got drunk?
- mann, i can't remember. it's been a whileeee.

23. Where's your favourite place to eat with friends?
- anywhere nice, comfortable and cozy.

24. Can you cook?
- sadly, no. that is why i constantly thank god for ryan.

25. What car do you drive?
- the four-wheeled kembara yo!

27. Last time you cried?
- last wednesday night. while studying for goddamn HMCS paper.

28. Most hated food?
- i love food.

29. Thing you like most about yourself?
- the heart.

30. Things you hate most about yourself?
- the skin and its tan-nest. bwarghh!

31. Last time you had an argument?
- sometime ago.

33. Favorite Movie?
- none.

34. Name all the races of the people that you've been with?
- the rojak races in malaysia, indonesians, koreans, canadians, aussies.

35. Last movie rented?
- don't rent movies dei.

36. Favourite alcoholic drink?
- baileys and malibu, please. thank you.

37. Favourite perfume?
- carolina herrera 212.

38. What are you thinking at the moment?
- damn, i want my VHP you dawg.

brain pain.

i'm done with the world's longest and toughest paper.
it's a 5 hours paper fyi.
and i actually sat in there for a fucking 4.5 hours.
but half of the time i was dreaming and looking around lah tiu.
cos i don't fucking know how to do what.

currently having a 3 days break from hell.
hoorays.
but it sucks.
dead boring.
ryan's back in hometown :(
so i gotta drag my mom with me for retail therapy.
and lucky shit i have beef to ajak me for yumchar session hor? -_-"

about a week more until i complete my finals.
i'm so gonna party till i drop.
i'll go for many many many drinking sessions.
:D

but after all that fun, what should i do?
study till i go insane, or work my ass off?
this time, i'll let you decide.

dum dee dee dum.

tomorrow's the day!
the joy horror begins =)

whoopdeedoo...
sick cock song huh, cheebyes?
screw you.

die trying.

trial's over.
finals starts on wednesday.
i am so muthafuckin stress.
i don't want just a fucking PASS.
wtf.

it's hard to enjoy the weekends lately.
people need to fucking ruin my weekends.
they need to get a life.
they don't know i need my 'US' times.
they can't think.
i hate people.

have a nice day dickheads.