let it stay the same.

great day. did something i totally love today with mum and sis. shopping. we jam drove all the way to bangsar for blook and then hopped over to sri hartamas for cats whiskers. mannn, cats whiskers offers tonnes of good shit! i wanna go there againnnnn. i want to get that pair of pumps! but they don't have the size for my small feet. *cries* but thank god. i got myself 3 pretty tops. HAHAHAHAHA. so darn happy.

donkee has got an interview tomorrow in flinders at mont kiara. am i supposed to wish him good luck, all the best, hope you get through it and all these shit? i don't think i need to. because i reckon he'll definitely get his job. something in which i don't want it to happen. i know i'm being a lil' selfish over here. i can't help it. sometimes i wish he'll just change his mind and go back to study. sometimes i wish i can brainwash him. sometimes i wish that there will be a U-turn somewhere in his lil brain. *sigh* gone all the good ol' days. no more breakfast or lunch session together. cause i'll be in college. no more dinner and supper session together. cause he'll be working. no more late night mamak-ings. no more late night movies. no more...everything. life is gonna be so fuck up. i hate to face changes in life. any sort of changes. because i suck in adapting myself in a brand new life or situation. i'm a big idiot for that. once he asked me if i will wait for him and just try getting used to it. i gave him a very much confident yes. sorry ling, i lied. my answer was supposed to be, i'll try.

i don't feel good right now. i can feel tears streaming down my cheek. got to go. nite.