"if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died."

thank you unkle jonn.
=D

happy 21st my chi.

yenchi's birthday bash @ mystique last saturday.

all pictures courtesy of david and yenchi's friendster. heh.

the birthday babe.

her other half, david.

her 'act-cute' moments.

ok lah i know it's always the 3 of us.

my weekends damn unproductive man.
saturday, used up half of the day loitering in the curve with ruby and chaiyen without buying anything. urm, bought small things. and crap, i had 5 meals in a day. boogie night with the family in mystique towards the end of the day followed by another birthday bash in Neway @ Times Square.

sunday, slept whole day lah what else.
.....

i've got a bag full of motherfuckers and smashed assholes.
you want some?

wednesday already?

it's confirmed.

he don't love me no more.
there is a third party.
he said he would love to do her.

her name is Elisha Cuthbert.


ryan has been watching The Girl Next Door for the umpteenth time already. the latest was yesterday night. he smiled throughout the whole movie. a bloody cheeky and horny one. this is freaking me out.

how now brown cow?

[EDIT] 3.53pm
my emo calv suggested that i can get even by watching whoever i think is hot. heh. right. tonight i'm going home to download Wicker Park, Pearl Harbour, Hollywood Homicide, Black Hawk Down, Lucky Number Slevin, The Virgin Suicides etc etc etc etc.


woot. it will soon be my turn to smile cheekily and horny-ly watching Josh Hartnett. Ashton Kutcher is next.

in your face mr.ryan.

[EDIT][EDIT] 9.38pm
i just got back from work and dinner. i switched on the PC and crap, i saw Elisha Cuthbert staring at me. i swear to God i still see the picture of Dj Scot spinning in UVNation as the desktop wallpaper yesterday night wtf. and what's worse? i maximize Azureus and saw a few movies downloading. Love Actually, Captivity, The Quiet. all starred by Elisha Cuthbert. tonight he will be sleeping out at the living hall.


*bangs head against wall and die*

dilemma.

such brilliant offer.

what do i do what do i do.

fucking lost.

you tell me.

dunnowhattoblogwtf.

There was a man who had 3 very loving girlfriends. They are all pretty and nice. And he's having great trouble trying to decide who to marry. So, he gave each one of them $5,000 and see what they do with the money.

The first one, went out shopping. Bought nice clothes & do up her hair and everything. She said to him: "I love you so much that I spent all the money to make myself look pretty and nice because I know you like it. Just for you." He's touched. This girl did everything so that he will love her.

The second girlfriend took the money and bought all kinds of nice clothes and latest gadgets for him. She said to him: "I love you so much that I spent all the money to buy you gifts and things that you like. I love you so much that I left nothing for myself." He's very touched. She gave everything to him.

The third girlfriend took the money and invested them into the stock market. Within 5 days, the money doubled. She took out the $5000, gave it back to him and the balance she opened another investment account. She said to him:"I love you so much that I'll help you grow your money so you won't have to worry about living. I'll take care of everything for you." Naturally, he's touched too. This girl is so intelligent and so loving.

Then he had to make a decision on who to marry; and he decided to marry the one with the BIGGEST breasts.

Morale of the story: Men will always be men.

guilt.

dear you,

it has been almost 3 years now.
look how time flies.
i hope you are doing alright.
it's great to know that you are still keeping the broken watch.
and everything else.

there is something that i have always wanted to tell you.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i let us fail.

p/s : thank you for the memories.

xoxo.

abcdefck you.

gone.devotion.promise.forward.lost.thoughts.dead.lie.commitment.over.
alone.voices.pain.abandon.darkness.appreciation.wound.ego.regrets.love.
selfishness.try.existence.salvation.erase.fate.devastation.forsake.chance.
invisible.mistake.stolen.ability.dream.escape.scar.change.ignorance.numb.
faults.distant.rewind.blind.reality.absence.pride.fears.security.fall.past.
unknown.scream.foolish.return.faith.satisfaction.empty.mistake.nothing.
bitter.embrace.toleration.silence.echo.together.failure.wishes.bliss.shame.

life.

miss banana.

sumutaO says:
你好。
dysphoria. says:
dunno how to read lah wtf.
sumutaO says:
郑燕茹
dysphoria. says:
that's my name, dumbo.
dysphoria. says:
hahahaa
dysphoria. says:
but the last letter should be without the two horns on top
dysphoria. says:
just the lower part
dysphoria. says:
lol
sumutaO says:
你在干吗？
dysphoria. says:
errr..wo pu ming pai?
dysphoria. says:
hahaha
sumutaO says:
笨蛋！
dysphoria. says:
AHHHHHHH WHUTEVEEERR!
sumutaO says:
damn, u can't even read simple chinese ar?
dysphoria. says:
yes, i can't.. -_-"
dysphoria. says:
i only know one two three four...ten..mouth..human..sky..big..small...date..month..my own name..
dysphoria. says:
:D
sumutaO says:
i give u tuition class, RM1200 per month
dysphoria. says:
fuhlamak!
dysphoria. says:
gila so expensive
dysphoria. says:
i ask my mother to teach me FOC
dysphoria. says:
chiz.
sumutaO says:
i'm a pro!
dysphoria. says:
my mother also pro!
sumutaO says:
i guess ur mother don't know how type chinese on MSN.
sumutaO says:
hehe
sumutaO says:
i can
dysphoria. says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. true also hor.

damn fail lah me i know.

guidelines for anyone as banana as me.
你好。 = ni hao [hello]
你在干吗？= ni zai gan ma? [what are you doing?]
笨蛋！= ben dan [stupid]

happy learning wtf.

seeking solace.

my long time sickness has gotten me all emo-ish since last week.
i shed tears listening to x-japan's longing.
been blasting delerium and sarah mclachlan's silence.
orgasmic. fucken' euphoric.

the bitch is super broke now.

her credit card bills are piling up like mad.
but the mega sales is still on.
she just bought her prince a brand new mobile phone.
because she owed him many presents.
last year's birthday present. last year's christmas present. this year's valentine's present.
urm, what else?

ahhh. PMS PMS PMS.
fuck the monthly cramp.
fuck life.